Another weekend is here.
Sent you a SMS on Friday morning, to know how you feel of your upset stomach, was surprise that you called, as you said you were lazy to reply my SMS. You told me that you worked until 5am+ in the morning, slept for about an hour, back in office to pass on the work to your colleague before you go home to rest during lunch time.
Told you that I would teach two classes on Friday, 1 in the afternoon, the other one in the evening. Ask if you could text me when at home. Read your SMS after my afternoon class. You're out with your mum. Ask me who will conduct the evening class in MSC, as you might want to join the class. No reply from you after that, don't know if you joined the class or not. It started to rain about 3pm+ when I was in MV. Sent few SMS to you around night time, no reply, guess you should be having your rest at home. Sent you a Goodnight message before going to bed to end my Friday.
Had your reply on Saturday morning, told me you slept at 8pm last night. On your way to Sunway for class. Remind you to have your meal. You replied that you were on your way to Jusco to get something to eat, and bought your protein supplement. I spent whole afternoon in MV, settling the new releases launching related issues as the person-in-charge is away for holidays. Another 2 classes today in the club back-to-back in the evening.
Thank you for spending time reading my blog. And thank you for feeling touched with what I wrote, with my poor English.
I know you have to work on your own issues first, you need time for yourself to work things out, and now is not a good time for you to engage or commit to any new relationship, as it's not fair for you or me. Furthermore, we still don't have the chance to talk about your issues, as you said; you would let me know when it's time. What I want you to know is, I really understand, I do, honestly.
Few weeks back, when I told one of my close friends, that I met someone I would like to spend more time with, my friend just asked me a question that make me ponder, for some time. His question was, " You are just single for few months, why you want to rush into a new relationship again so fast? Go slow and enjoy your single life, enjoy the dating process. Don't jump into the boat so fast."
In a way, my friend had the point. I'm just single for 7 months. God knows how hard I had tried to gain my strength and stand up proud again, healing day after day, and become a stronger person each day as time passed. And yes, why don't I slow down a bit, look around, and enjoy the moment that I had missed all these years? The time to spend whole day in MPH or kino-kuniya, reading books I like without worrying of someone else? The freedom to listen to my songs collection while reading my favourite book? Isn't that what I hope for, some personal time, to enjoy myself, with the peace of mind?
TIME is the best medicine to heal any hurt that we have, physically or emotionally. And that is what you need the most. Sorry if I make you feel that I'm pressuring or rushing you into a relationship with me. Honestly, I did think of that before. Why? I don't know if you will agree, but sometimes it's just too hard to find someone who shares the same intension like we do, in many aspects. I just don't want to let go the opportunity. Anyhow, my friend's advice did "wake" me up in certain way.
I won't say or promise something like, I will wait for you or what-so-ever, as that is going to make you feel pressurize. I would just be myself, like an open book, for you to read and turn the page, to go on to the next chapter, whenever you feel like to. I won't dare says that I'm a good book that worth reading, as some of the chapters were written badly. I do hope those chapters you are soon to discover/read would be as true as what I could provide you with, the real me, the unhidden me, under the Sun.
I don't know if going out with me for meal or a drink consider as dating for you rather than outing. I really hope that we could have meal again like we first did, chat and talk about lots of things or share some nice songs. To enjoy the moment to be your friend. Getting know each other, and let time reveal the future. In the meantime, just let nature takes its cost. Deal?
~ I tried not to worry too much..
Just want you to know,
I worried because I CARE... ~
王光良/江美琪 - 對你有感覺
我曾深刻体会 对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你 给我安慰
看你失落的脸 又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉 竟如此的强烈
眼角的泪 它给过谁
伤透了心 也无所谓
我会愿意静静地 陪在你身边
如果说爱 已不可为
那我宁愿 藏心里面
其实我害怕 会失去你的感觉
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着 犹豫不决
没准备 跨越爱的界线
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退 被爱包围
谁犯规 都狼狈
谁能解围 让一切完美
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我 拥抱瞬间
不后悔 这暧昧
星光唯美 把爱放心里面
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