<日复一日> Time After Time

Another Monday. Is it the Monday Blues that everyone mentioned? I don't know. Felt tired and sleepy at work.

Another week. Making myself occupied with work, tuition and gym everyday. Dinner with friends. Arranging for new tuition classes. However, when it comes to night, I just couldn't help myself missing you.

Logging into MSN every night. Open the chat window, but didnt chat with you. Why? I don't know. I was, and I'm trying not to disturb you. I wish I could still chat with you in MSN, asking you how's your day, share what happened everyday, make some jokes to cheer you, listening to your "Sam Si" and many more. And now, I'm just remained silence. Is it best to keep it in this way? I don't know.

You MSN me last night. We chat like we just got to know each other. I asked how's your weekend? You said it's as usual: online, gym, dinner and movie. How about you? You asked. Busy with tuition? You asked me what's the meaning of the Mandarin phrases I put on my MSN, “未曾酒醉已清醒，未曾深爱已无情”. I translate it as "I'm awake before I was drunk, Love is gone before I could love", it's part of the lyrics from an old Cantanese song. You were silent after reading it.

You told me you read my blog before MSN with me. I don't know what to say. Just divert the conversation, telling you I bought few books over the weekend. You asked, you have time to read? I don't know Dear. May be I do, when sitting in front of my computer, looking at your chat window, accompanying you, without you notice. Our conversation stops here. It was 2am+, I guess you were lying on your bed, fell asleep, without saying good night again. The one I knew, from the first day. That's the time I felt the connection between you and me, what I know about you, but I don't have the chance to get to know more now...

Quietdrive - Time After Time

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick

And think of you

Caught up in circles

Confusion is nothing new

You say Go slow

I fall behind

The second hand unwinds

If you’re lost

You can look

And you will find me

Time after time

If you fall

I will catch you

I’ll be waiting

Time after time

Time after time

Time after time

Sometimes you picture me

I'm walking too far ahead

You're calling to me

I can't hear just what you've said

You say Go Slow

I fall behind

The second hand unwinds

If you’re lost

You can look

And you will find me

Time after time

If you fall I will catch you

I’ll be waiting

Time after time

After my picture fades

And darkness has turned to gray

Watching through windows

You're wondering if I'm ok

And you say Go slow

I fall behind

The drum beats out of time

If you’re lost

You can look

And you will find me

Time after time

If you fall I will catch you

I’ll be waiting

Time after time

If you’re lost

You can look

And you will find me

Time after time

If you fall I will catch you

I’ll be waiting (I will be waiting)

Time after time

Time after time

Time after time

<不只是朋友> Not Just Friends

It was a long day yesterday. Working non-stop in school, busy checking answer and preparing the exam report of students. Had a monthly-scheduled teachers meeting until almost 6pm. Really exhausted. Rushing home to get my gym bag and went to MV for BodyCombat class at 6.40pm, was late for half of the class anyway.

BodyPump class at 7.50pm. You were outside the studio before BodyCombat class was overred. I was nervous. Don't know how to react when saw you. I was on stage as usual, shadowing. You were just in front of the stage. I don't know if you notice this, I was avoiding looking to your direction or avoiding eyes contact with you, however, we did have eyes contact, for once. I know you were looking at me time to time. I was stealing a glance at you from time to time too.

Class was overred, back to locker room, was thinking how to pass you the money. You were on phone when I walked to you. Just passed you the money, without any conversation. Felt relief, yet bit disappointed. Wanted to talk to you, but scare to talk to you. What's wrong with us? Or what's wrong with me?

Went to Jusco to get my dinner, was hoping to get your message, only received message from other friends. Went to MPH to buy books, and went home. Log-in to MSN as usual. You were not there. Had my dinner, do some house and room cleaning. You were online after I took my shower. Open the chat window of yours, but didn't send you any message. Listening to songs, wrapping my books.

You message me finally. Simple chat, about the class just now, and your online profile, then both were silence. Did you feel what I felt? Both of us are keeping a distance between us, unmentioned.

Still remember of what you chat in the same afternoon. You told me, that you have so many friends, but I'm the only one that you would share your "Sam Si" and give you some opinions or feedback, not even him nor friends you know them longer than me. I don't know what does that mean, or what you tried to tell; but Dear, you know what I think... Do you?



黄小琥 - 不只是朋友



你身边的女人总是美丽
你追逐的爱情总是游戏
在你的眼里
我是你可以对饮言欢的朋友
你从不吝啬催促我分享你的快乐
你开心的时候总是挥霍
你失意的片刻总是沉默
在你的眼里
我是你可以依靠倾吐的朋友
你从不忘记提醒我分担你的寂寞
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点自私的占有

你开心的时候总是挥霍
你失意的片刻总是沉默
在你的眼里
我是你可以依靠倾吐的朋友
你从不忘记提醒我分担你的寂寞
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点自私的占有

想做你不变的恋人
想做你一世的牵挂
想做你不只是朋友
喔....喔....
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点自私的占有
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点自私的占

<爱。希望> Love。Hope

Is this the end of it? I don't know. I supposed so. You said it's better to let it be in this way. As long as you are still with him, nothing could happen between us. You don't want to give me any hope, to wait, when there might be someone out there for me. You think it's not fair to me.

Didn't sleep well this few nights. Keep on awake in the middle of sleep. Not in the mood of doing anything. Feel like something is missing within me, something important was gone. You said it's only LIKE, not LOVE, is it?

Sitting in front of the computer, log-in to MSN as usual. Seeing you online, click on your name, open up the chat window, but didn't send you any message, didn't start any conversation. Just had the chat window companying me doing work, seeing your photo at the chat window, thinking of what we had chat before last time.. All I have now, is just memory..

A friend shared this after watching a love movie, "We couldn't be together, but it doesn't mean that I don't love you". May be it's the wrong timing for us. May be it would get better at other time..

Remember what I told you? I said, "doesn't matter what I do or how I react when I see you in person after tonight, always remember, deep down in my heart, I always love and care about you..."



Gan Lae Gan [The Love of Siam]


If I said that I wrote this song for you
Would you believe me?
It might not be as well-written or as beautiful
I want you to know that a love story
Can't be written if you're not in love
But for you, my dear
I wrote this song so easily

You might have heard hundreds or thousands of love songs
They might be meaningful
But they are meant for anyone
But when you listen to this song
A song that's written for you only
If you understand the meaning, then our hearts
Will be together as one

Let it be a song on the path we walk together
That only has voices of you and me
Together as long as possible
Just like a line from a poem
As long as you have love, you still have hope
Every time your love shines in my heart
I can see my destiny

There are so many truths in love
And in the past, I spend a lot of time
Searching for its meaning
But now i just know
Whenever you are near
I know that if life is a melody, you are the lyrics
That give it meaning and make it beautiful

Let it be a song on the path we walk together
That only has voices of you and me
Together as long as possible
Just like a line from a poem
As long as you have love, you still have hope
Every time your love shines in my heart
I can see my destiny

There's a path for us to walk together
And there are voices of you and me
There's a path for us to walk together side by side
And there are voices of you and me

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李玟 答案



云很淡 才显得天那么蓝

因为爱 没有答案 才会在心中余波荡漾

于是你 终于明白 爱和拥有本无关

曾经在 交会刹那 那份感动是一生的宝藏

爱 活在心上 不是时间可轻易打断

就算是交会时短 记忆 会超越岁月边疆

爱 活在心上 不受谁的决定改变方向

你真爱过 这就是答案