<友 情> Friendship

1月8日。身旁没有你的日子。第十九天。早晴晚阴。

今天早上的情绪比昨晚好多了。在教补习时，收到了 F 的简讯。终于明了，补习中心的始末，都是自己的错。回复 F 的简讯，告诉他昨晚在 V 的陪伴下，心有所悟而开始放下；而让 F 感到失望难过。这是我始料不及的。

教完补习后，去了 F 的住处，与 F 见面，告诉他事情并不是他所想的。这是 F 最后一次对我的劝告。我告诉 F 下次再见时，我会是个快乐的人。F 说让时间证明，我告诉他，我一定会。

我暂时失去了一班知心好友。都是自己的错，太沉溺在悲伤里，对朋友善意的援手，置之不理，而让他们失望。我能做的，唯有让自己坚强，走出悲伤。

告诉 V 这消息，V 也感到可惜。V 说，你要坚强，别让关心你的朋友担心你了。

傍晚去了gym 帮 S 教 JC，让自己忘记悲伤，全心的去教 class。

Class 完了后，准备去和 R 晚餐，外面却下着雨。在 MV 待到 9pm，雨停了，是时候晚餐了。

回家后，与 V 通了电话。聊了今天所发生的事，今天的心情。只告诉 V 我会好好的过每一天，会让明天比今天好 1%，或至少 0.5%，慢慢的收拾心情，慢慢的疗伤，重新开始。

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Life without you by my side. The 19th day.

Feeling much better this morning than last night. F sms me during the morning tuition class. Finally knew what's wrong with the tuition center. It's all my fault. Replied F's sms, told him I felt better after talking to V last night. Didn't expect that F would felt hurt and disappointed.

Went to F's place after finish tuition class. Told him what's actually happen. This was the last time F adviced me. I told him I would be a happy guy when we meet next time. F said time will tell. I told him, I WILL BE.

I had temporary lost a group of close friends. It's all my fault. Letting myself drawn in sadness, and didn't not see the good intension of their helping hands, that disappointed them. What I could do now is be strong, and get over the sadness.

Told V of what's happening. V just told me to be strong, don't let those friends who care worried about me anymore.

Help S thought JC class in the evening at gym. For my first time, i really concentrate in the class, and give my best of it.

Supposed to me R for dinner after class, but it's raining when I'm done. Waited at MPH until rain stopped, it's dinner time.

Chat with V over the phone after back at home. Told him how was my day and how I felt. Told him that I would do my best to pull myself together and move on. Will make each day 1% better than yesterday, even if it's only 0.5%, let time heal the hurt, let time heal the pain, to start all over again...